I wonder what death feels like.
I wonder if there’s a sudden rush as if I was riding a bike.
I wonder if it would feel as though I’m floating in the air.
Slowly getting higher as I escape my despair.
I wonder if I asphyxiate as my brain begins to suffocate.
I wonder if I will get relief from all of my grief.
I wonder if I would feel satisfaction for my decision.
Because after all, I was the one who caused my extinction.
I wonder if it would be painful or if that would depend.
Depend on how I would opt for my life to end.
I wonder if Death would come visit me and take my hand like a friend,
Or if he would grab me by force with no chance for me to defend.
I wonder if my life would flashback through my eyes.
I wonder if I would see again my miserable life.
I wonder if I would witness my struggle and strife,
As I slowly slip away and die.
I wonder if I would finally find the peace I’ve been desperately looking for.
I wonder if it would finally free me from my tormentor.
Or would it only cast me to another place full of horror.
I guess there’s only one way to find out, but I can’t opt out.
Because my death would be a selfish exit and it would only bring pain.
It would only cause emotionally strains
To the people and pets I care for.